Sunday, November 1, 2015

So I've been thinking - About retiring

So I’ve been thinking

Those of you close to me know that my husband has been battling some health issues and the symptoms don’t tell the doctors what exactly is going on. It could be psychological, it could be physical and we’re in the process right now of finding the right solution, but like all things it involves patience and that’s not always an easy thing. He’s losing his balance, he’s falling and has gone from totally ambulatory to now using a walker and even that sometimes doesn’t seem to be enough when his legs won’t move.

For me it’s been a soul-searching time. I had already decided to retire in May when I turn 62,  I currently work full time, my husband is 72 and he’s retired. He’s not ready nor am I ready to put him in full time nursing care. So last night as I sat up until 4am unable to sleep wondering how I’m going to go to work on Monday knowing that I could find him on the floor or worse and I made the decision to quit my job and stay home to take care of him. This will require some extreme belt tightening and some inventive ways to budget. But I also know that it’s something that we can do and that the important thing is that I’m here for him just like I know he’d be here for me if the roles were reversed.

Forty years ago when I said I do the vows I made were sacred and I thank God that I’m capable of fulfilling them all for better or for worse.
Keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we go through this trying time. We have wonderful family and friends who will support us through this, especially my wonderful daughter Erin who’s a constant breath of fresh air and goes above and beyond, and my mother who’s agreed to move in with us to give us moral and physical support.

I know it’s the right decision but like I told my daughter this morning I feel like a boat without oars right now just floating aimlessly in the water.

My plan is to keep the blog up and running because it’s important to me to hawk all things literary but if I miss a day or two don’t give up on me. Without my blogging friends it would be a cold and lonely world.


8 comments:

  1. *hugs* You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers Debbie! I really hope everything works out and they can find a solution to what is happening. I can't imagine how stressful and scary it all must be for all of you.

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  2. So sorry to hear of your husband's illness and so feel for you. If it were me I think I would be doing the same, worrying while you work would be awful, also sounds like time to have quality time together. Of course no giving up on you because you might not post every day etc.
    Good to know you have supportive friends and family, often something like this brings out many 'angels'. Sending prayerful thoughts and love and thanks for letting us know.

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  3. Whew! Scary decision, Debbie! That's awesome yall have a great support system in place and that you're able to do so to be with your hubby. I hope they're able to figure out what's going on soon! Lots of good thoughts and prayers for yall!

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  4. Big decision, but I wanted to applaud your words and shout 'you're my hero'. I hope I have this sort of courage and selflessness if a similar decision comes my way. And the decision is just the beginning so I'm glad you have such a wonderful support unit in place. :)

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    1. Thanks Sophia yes the support is great and I'm very thankful and optimistic too!

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