So I’ve been thinking
Those of you close to me know that my husband has been
battling some health issues and the symptoms don’t tell the doctors what
exactly is going on. It could be psychological, it could be physical and we’re
in the process right now of finding the right solution, but like all things it
involves patience and that’s not always an easy thing. He’s losing his balance,
he’s falling and has gone from totally ambulatory to now using a walker and
even that sometimes doesn’t seem to be enough when his legs won’t move.
For me it’s been a soul-searching time. I had already decided to retire in May when I turn 62, I currently work
full time, my husband is 72 and he’s retired. He’s not ready nor am I ready to
put him in full time nursing care. So last night as I sat up until 4am unable
to sleep wondering how I’m going to go to work on Monday knowing that I could
find him on the floor or worse and I made the decision to quit my job and stay home
to take care of him. This will require some extreme belt tightening and some
inventive ways to budget. But I also know that it’s something that we can do
and that the important thing is that I’m here for him just like I know he’d be
here for me if the roles were reversed.
Forty years ago when I said I do the vows I made were sacred
and I thank God that I’m capable of fulfilling them all for better or for
worse.
Keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we go through this
trying time. We have wonderful family and friends who will support us through
this, especially my wonderful daughter Erin who’s a constant breath of fresh air
and goes above and beyond, and my mother who’s agreed to move in with us to
give us moral and physical support.
I know it’s the right decision but like I told my daughter
this morning I feel like a boat without oars right now just floating aimlessly
in the water.
My plan is to keep the blog up and running because it’s
important to me to hawk all things literary but if I miss a day or two don’t
give up on me. Without my blogging friends it would be a cold and lonely
world.
*hugs* You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers Debbie! I really hope everything works out and they can find a solution to what is happening. I can't imagine how stressful and scary it all must be for all of you.
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DeleteSo sorry to hear of your husband's illness and so feel for you. If it were me I think I would be doing the same, worrying while you work would be awful, also sounds like time to have quality time together. Of course no giving up on you because you might not post every day etc.
ReplyDeleteGood to know you have supportive friends and family, often something like this brings out many 'angels'. Sending prayerful thoughts and love and thanks for letting us know.
Thanks Kathryn
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Whew! Scary decision, Debbie! That's awesome yall have a great support system in place and that you're able to do so to be with your hubby. I hope they're able to figure out what's going on soon! Lots of good thoughts and prayers for yall!
ReplyDeleteBig decision, but I wanted to applaud your words and shout 'you're my hero'. I hope I have this sort of courage and selflessness if a similar decision comes my way. And the decision is just the beginning so I'm glad you have such a wonderful support unit in place. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Sophia yes the support is great and I'm very thankful and optimistic too!
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